'Sorry my Darling'
Phew! This is a hard one.
You know those moments when your beautiful child you kiss, cuddle and adore so endlessly suddenly becomes that horrible thing that is out to get you!? Well lets just say I have had my fair share of those moments lately, most of them relating to sleep (or lack of).
And it's in those moments, our true character is seen. All our weaknesses arise to the surface and we see how human we really are. And do you know what? That is OK. It's OK to be human. To make a confession, I have never sworn as much as I have since becoming a mother. Actually it's probably the first time I have really sworn much at all! I have had my patience tested, and tested.... and tested. I am so entirely grateful to find strength in my faith, and I know God has helped me stay calm so many times.
I have come to learn, however, that there is a big lesson to be learnt here. Teaching Forgiveness. Let's face it, I am going to yell at my kids, I am going to say things I'll regret, I'm going to have those days where I feel like the worst mother in the world. But at the end of the day, when all is quiet and still (and maybe after a shower and a cup of tea!), I will hold my babe in my arms and whisper in his ear 'Sorry my darling one. Mumma was wrong. Forgive me. I love you'.
And that is hopefully what he will remember. That Mum and Dad make mistakes, but they still love me. And hopefully one day he will realise he too isn't perfect and is also in need of forgiveness.
Let's not forget to say 'Sorry my darling'.
You know those moments when your beautiful child you kiss, cuddle and adore so endlessly suddenly becomes that horrible thing that is out to get you!? Well lets just say I have had my fair share of those moments lately, most of them relating to sleep (or lack of).
And it's in those moments, our true character is seen. All our weaknesses arise to the surface and we see how human we really are. And do you know what? That is OK. It's OK to be human. To make a confession, I have never sworn as much as I have since becoming a mother. Actually it's probably the first time I have really sworn much at all! I have had my patience tested, and tested.... and tested. I am so entirely grateful to find strength in my faith, and I know God has helped me stay calm so many times.
I have come to learn, however, that there is a big lesson to be learnt here. Teaching Forgiveness. Let's face it, I am going to yell at my kids, I am going to say things I'll regret, I'm going to have those days where I feel like the worst mother in the world. But at the end of the day, when all is quiet and still (and maybe after a shower and a cup of tea!), I will hold my babe in my arms and whisper in his ear 'Sorry my darling one. Mumma was wrong. Forgive me. I love you'.
And that is hopefully what he will remember. That Mum and Dad make mistakes, but they still love me. And hopefully one day he will realise he too isn't perfect and is also in need of forgiveness.
Let's not forget to say 'Sorry my darling'.
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